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| 07:10pm 12/09/2004 |
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| Wee! ^^ |
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| 06:21pm 12/09/2004 |
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Ok, so...I had a perfectly good Homecoming dress, but it was too...gowny for the dance. o0 Yaknow? So now I have a sort of costume. *evil, smug look* The quiet one shall blow minds. It's goth...princess...Eee! I'm so excited. ^^ I'll post pics once I get the skirt. ^ ~ |
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| 01:28pm 11/09/2004 |
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mood:  shocked
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And when I say I didn't tweak it...I swear on the holy bible. Two of those... 0_0 Eep! |
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| 12:26pm 11/09/2004 |
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mood:  amused
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September 11th today, but I guess that's pretty obvious. ^^; Ah well. Bad memories...it's been what, 3 years now? That's unbelievable to me.
And I don't mean to be bitchy...but dear God! >< Some of my RL friends are SO shallowy and ditzy! I now relay one of their entries:
hmm rainy again.
leigh came home with me and we watched it rain. called my BBF.
then saw the news paper in the yard which just pretty much gave us an excuse to go jump in the rain. so we go jump like 5 steps of my porch and run in the rain! so much fun! haha
then i taught leigh some guitar. me leigh and linds are so gunna start a band! hahaha yesssssssssss ahahhha
ha then dad took me and leigh to her house ahha had to run up her million steps to the door while she got the key in the backyard ahhahahah. slipped like 1000 times hahahahahah funny
later me and leigh met linds for dinner at brogans YUMMY then went to the movies ahhaha like RAN in hahahah ;) the movie was super good but really confussing. wicker park. the fact that lil 7th graders were throwing chocolate candy at us didn't make it better hahaha
hahah but tonight was fun :)
leave a sweet one
Don't get me wrong - I love the girl, really I do. But damn! If my life was like that, I don't think I'd find it worth living...perhaps I would put other people out of the misery of having to know me. And I swear, I think she wears pink and polka dots every day! >< Thank God for black. It's the only thing that separates me from these animals.
Anyway, Rebecca invited me to stay the night and without consulting me, my mother said yes. Well...lessee. I stayed over at her house about...3 years ago. Heh, we were friends at that stoopid Catholic school. And now we're in high school together, and we're...complements to each other, I guess you could say. I'm crazy and happy - she's quiet and studious. And she swears I'm hilarious. o0 We really fit well together. But her mom hated me, HeHeHe. Ah well. She's losing out. ^ ~ But apparently she likes me again now, because she was telling my mom how cool she thinks I am and how I have a good effect on Rebecca. Whoa! o0 Words I thought I'd never hear!
Ack, also, I must add this for my own gratification. >< Dear God, am I THE LUCKIEST girl on the PLANET. I'm talking to Josh...and my boyfriend really owes him. Josh reminds me just what I have that almost no one else does. - - "That sucks balls" is probably the most intelligent thing he's said in the past hour. >< 'it was funny when we got back, it was like midnight, and every1 on bus 2 was complaining because no one was accepting dares on truth or dare, and our bus was like, screw truth or dare, we all just got naked' Oh my goodness!
And he just asked me, 'wanna go hang out somewheres?' No, I'm afraid I have some deadly disease and only five hours to live. And it has become apparent that he doesn't know we're just friends, but he has NO reason to think otherwise. Going to a dance is going to a dance. So screw him. I'm keeping him at arms-length. He touches me, and he'll lose a fucking limb!
It would be about this time that I start worrying for my sanity. o0
EDIT: Mmm, new LJ theme makes me feel better... ^^ |
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| 04:09pm 10/09/2004 |
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mood: nervous
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Shitty day, completely and utterly. It's pouring outside, has been since this morning. And I got to start the day off right - my mother was screaming and swearing at me for not knowing where she put the bread away last time so I could make MY BROTHER a sandwich. Ahh, and my finger really hasn't hurt since the first couple days, but God Almighty, does it now! She grabbed me hand and twisted it. >< And as soon as I got home, more yelling and evil looks, but she had a friend of hers over...so I really don't want to know what it's going to be like once she gets back from taking her friend home. >>
On good news, I guess, Rebecca is going to call me so we can do something this weekend. Rebecca's neato, like my studious side. ^ ~ And I did really well on my Algebra II test...I think. ^^; *gulp*
Ah well, I better get moving fast lest I not be able to finish my net-rounds tonight. |
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| Wee! Horny! |
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| 05:51pm 09/09/2004 |
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mood:  horny
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Ok...so I just wanted to see what a horny penguin looked like. o0 So shot me! Nyah!
Anyway, I went to the doctors' today. Um, she went to feel my hand, barely touched it, and jumped back covering her mouth. You think that's a *bad* thing? ^^; Yes...ah well. She's referring me to a hand specialist because just in case I don't glow now, I need more x-rays. Silly me for thinking I didn't. >> Ah well. Since I've already been to this *certain* hand specialist 3 times for a finger I broke before and didn't tell anyone, I think we're going to get to know each other on a more friend/friend basis. ^ ~
LOL! Well if that isn't blunt. ^ ~ Well...I wouldn't know really, whether or not I have that. But I do have an addictive personality...I don't want to think about it! >< *covers eyes from mental image* But who shall cure me? o0 Even scarier thought... |
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| 05:45pm 08/09/2004 |
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mood:  stressed
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If that's possible. o0 But ah well. So...today...I got a Homecoming date...kinda. Not really. As you all know - you've been told SO SO SO many times ^ ~ - I love my boyfriend with ALL my heart, would never be unfaithful, the whole nine yards. He knows it too, the poor dear. >< But anyway, so, I'm going with my friend Josh. I haven't really mentioned him before...um...he's almost 16, he's Jewish, he has thick, curly black hair...I think that's it. ^^; Oh, and he plays almost every instrument under the sun. After Algebra II, he dashed after me in the hallway, yanked my bookbag backwards, and caught me. ^^; That's always a good way. He said, "So...are you going to Homecoming?" "Ya...I guess..." "Do you have a date?" "Um...no..." "You want to go with me?" *stalling for time* "You sure...? Really, really, really sure...?" "Ya, I've been waiting a while to ask you." "Ok then...I will." Ya, so anticlimatic. ^ ~
But anyway, I'm sure he knows we're just going as friends, but if he doesn't, I'll inform him. Mwehehehe! The only bad part is that besides other people not knowing that we're just friends, one of my REALLY good friend used to go out with him...oh, and my mom is going to kill me. >> I haven't told her yet. You know that sort of mom. When you don't have a date - "Oh God! You simply HAVE to go with a cute little boy your age! *dimple smile*". When you DO have a datish person (even a friend that she LOVED before) - "Sydney, I don't think he's your...calibre. He's going to bring your reputation down...other guys won't want to date you." It's not a freakin' date! And I don't CARE about other guys. Only one matters. And he said it was fine. So huzzah! Screw you, biatch.
Ooh, and Josh is driving his Camaro! Weehee! No, I'm not excited because he LURVES speed just as much as I do. ^ ~ Ack, and I just got off the phone with him. Jeffery and Dustin are going with us. This is going to be SO much fun now!
Alas for the lack of dance-date perfection. *pines for her boyfriend* >>
Now, for a listypoo!
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| 05:01pm 07/09/2004 |
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mood:  lonely
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Wow, I wonder how many of my entries have that title. ^^; Heh. So anyway, my computer is messed up...again. *sigh* I can't believe it. I've got to try to fix it, because I really don't want to have to wait for my dad. The problem says "UNMOUNTABLE_BOOT_VOLUME" so I assume that means the volume thingy is off when it starts. o0 But I dunno! *sobs* Ah well. It's not like I had anything important to do. < /sarcastic >
Anyway, the weather here today was TERRIBLE. At my high school, we have an open campus that was probably built when we were still burning witches - ok, ok, only 1856. ^ ~ But still! It's terrible how it floods...and it seems that half of Georgia's tree-cover was lying on our sidewalks. o0 Which was odd. Oh, and a dead squirrel that when I passed it, thought Nacht might like. LOL. Ah well.
Today was kinda boring and lonely...normally I feel awesome on overcast days, but I've been in an extreme loneliness spell lately, so I don't think it helped. But I have to hurry up and try to get over that because I have an awful amount of homework and tests coming up just this week. - -; And I'm going to the doctor Thursday for my finger. She's going to say, "It's broken. Why didn't you come sooner?" Um...because you scare me? HeHeHe, don't let them see the fear in your eyes. >>
And once again, I just wanna draw. >< Why can't the world leave me be?! [Except you guys and select other people of course.]
EDIT: Ok...I missed my boyfriend by *19* minutes. You have NO IDEA how upset and sad that makes me...I told my parents I didn't want to go out to dinner. Then I told them I didn't want to stop at Hernendez's...and where does that leave me? Not being able to sleep well tonight, that's where. >< Stoopid people. *sobs*
Anyway...basically all day, I've felt rotten. Lemme try to explain. It feels like someone's cut the top of my head off and filled the space around my brain with ice-water. Anybody know what I mean? That and I'm exhausted...and dammit, like I said before, I've felt really alone lately. >> I guess I haven't gotten to talk to the people I love enough lately. And tomorrow we have a Rifle Team meeting...and I have to try to tell Major why I can't be on the team this year...it's going to break my heart. >< I'm going to say that I have too much homework, but the truth is that it kills me to go even a day without talking my boyfriend, Nacht, or Greb. Seriously. I go to bed at night and just kinda lay there and stare at the ceiling because I can't go to sleep. >> I know that's REALLY pathetic...but I can't do it. So, bye bye Rifle Team, I guess.
Ack, my mom is yelling at me really badly. >< I'm so sick of this. I'm sorry, but I'm kinda delicate when it comes to loud voices and mean names. - - |
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| Eee! MUST See! |
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| 04:49pm 06/09/2004 |
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mood:  artistic
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Ok, must update, simply must. >> If you haven't seen "Hero," the indi film that they re-released after it hit it big, YOU MUST! ^^ It is SO inspiring. The plot is so twisting - four different stories with only 6 characters! And the colours, the symbolism, the meaning...THE COLOURS. oo Oh dear God, THE COLOURS. The colours, the movement, the intricate simplicity...it's absolutely stunning. THE COLOURS. oo [Just ignore the fact that it's all subtitles and Crouching Tiger, Hiding Dragon fighter. ^^;]
Wow... *was speechless* YOU MUST SEE IT. You can thank me later. ^ ~ COLOURS! |
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| Puppy! |
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| 08:14pm 05/09/2004 |
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mood:  tired
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Ah, finally. Ok, this is me holding Blossom and no...I'm not choking her. She was trying to bite me. She bites REALLY hard. >>
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| 11:45am 05/09/2004 |
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Some odd stuff going on about my house, but oh well, need to talk to Nacht about it. >> *reminds self* So anyway, last night I had my friend over...once again, I'm not a bad kid, just...some of my friends...are...wild. LOL. That's the nicest way to put it. I have quite a long story I've never really told the whole of...and it's odd how events connect, terrible things that happen to you that make you want to just die bring you to complete happiness. Perhaps I should start at the beginning.
I know what some people are going to think "attention-seeker," but that's not what this entry is about. First of all, this is the first time I really feel comfortable talking about it. Second, basically the only reason I'm online is because I want to help people, especially my friends, and I know the tendency people have to write-off others that are trying to help them because they don't feel like they understand what they're going through. I understand, but still. Knowing more about me and what *I've* come through might help others because they can A.] relate or B.] talk to me and feel that I understand, that's what I'm here for. ^^ And that's what this is here for.
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And so...that's why I want to help. I've helped some of you, but perhaps only once or twice, and still, it is only a few of you. Please, I just had a friend in RL that thought he was alone and made a huge mistake...because he thought he had no one to turn to. I don't want that to happen to anyone else. I want to help. If you ever feel alone, you're not. Talk to me. Please. |
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| 02:38pm 04/09/2004 |
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mood:  happy
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Wow, the wind is SO high here that you can go outside and lean back into it 45 degrees! Something crazy like 60 MPH, kinda hard to drive in, as I found out this morning. ^^; The hurricane ended up landing *right* where it would for it to be the worst for us, but it lessened before it hit, so now we basically have storms and very high wind, but that's it. We'll be fine. It's all good, and the leaniness is SO much fun! ^^
Anyway, last night, the football game was tons of fun - we creamed them 52 to 7 - and it made me think I need to try harder to become more involved with some people from school. They're still teen girls and are constantly preoccupied with guys and clothes, but they're nice, I guess...or they try to be what they think is nice. ^^ So maybe I should give them a chance.
Also on the note of friends, I'm having my friend Whit over tonight to get some pizza and watch a movie, that apparently has my twin in it. If you've ever seen "Ten Things I Hate About You," Kat is supposedly my RL twin - attitude, not looks. o0 I don't know if this is good or bad, but I'll find out tonight! ^ ~
*hugs for all* |
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| Well, well, well... |
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| 04:03pm 03/09/2004 |
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mood: tired
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Got my Algebra II test back. 77, which may I point out, is 7 points ABOVE passing? ^ ~ But anyway, there's football game tonight that I'm going to because Asheton and Josh want to hang out with me. Should be mooch fun, or at least I'm expecting it to be. That's if I go. ^^; That's the problem with RL me. If I'm not super-committed to going somewhere, I usually don't...it's not like I write off my super bestest friends, but they have each other there, so if I didn't go, at least they won't be lonely...or that's my logic at least. ^^;
Um...lessee...not much going on here I guess...hurricane should be ok now. I don't really wanna leave. >> Too much hassle. Oh, and my finger hurts like you wouldn't believe. I accidently reached for a doorknob with that hand today and jumped back when I gripped and kinda whimpered. Anyway, I guess that's it. |
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| Wee and oh no! |
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| 03:53pm 02/09/2004 |
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mood: tired
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Very good things and very bad things today.
Very Good Things:
> I got a 104 on my Latin test today.
> I got a 110 on that chemistry test - making my average a 103.
> My World History teacher wants me to be her Honour Guard, AKA crazy money for a couple of hours grading work each week.
> The art club's year project this year is a madrigal feast - yeehaw!
Very Bad Things:
> My Algebra test just seems to be getting lower and lower as I think about it.
> My mom had abdominal surgery today.
> The hurricane changed directions a bit, possibly to hit us even worse.
> I don't get the day off school tomorrow so I can't help pack or get ready.
> My dad's plane broke down before he ever got on it, so he can't get back, so we probably can't leave to evacuate even if we really, really, really should.
> This hurricane is going to ruin my entire holiday weekend.
> My finger is SO broken that even I am now beginning to admit that I need it to be seen, but then I can't write or type if they try to fix it.
Wow...looks worse now that I write it down. - -; |
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| 06:16pm 01/09/2004 |
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mood: tired
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Ok, packing now. And leaving soonly I suppose. Maybe tomorrow afternoon, maybe a bit later. If the hurricane hits north of Saint Augustine, we'll probably get 13-18 feet of flood waters. o0 That's BIG.
But anyway, totally bombed my Algebra II test today. TOTALLY, like you have no idea. I'm thinking...35 if I'm lucky. - -; I forgot what vertical lines were, but somehow I managed to remember Line Regression postulates and Correlation Coeffiecient calculation methods. How I ask you, how?! *dies* But I did get back my Chemistry test. 96. I didn't even read the chapter or do the worksheets. - -;
Ack, also must add this. My dad is flying back from Oklahoma City to help us pack and get out in a timely fashion. School still hasn't been cancelled, which scares me. o0 I only have 5 absent days for this semester - I can't miss some for a stoooopid hurricane. xX Oh, and one more thing, my mom is the queen bitch of drama. She's running around the house crying and screaming. Why? Perhaps we shall never know. |
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| Hurricane Time! |
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| 06:31pm 31/08/2004 |
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mood:  excited
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Woohoo! Oh God, this is great. ^^ Ok, category 4 hurricane, almost a 5, headed straight for us! Evacuation Friday probably, mom's surgery the day before. Oh goodness... *rubs hands together* Everyone is freaking. I feed off this. ^^
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I'm the dot, my loves. So, needless to say, as it is forecasted to hit us this weekend, perhaps I shall have to evacuate soonly...maybe. I wanna stay. - -; I lurve storms, especially dangerous ones. >> I should stay and watch the house. ^ ~ |
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| 04:18pm 31/08/2004 |
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mood: artistic
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Another hurricane so far headed straight towards us - which I, personally, think is awesome. I love storms. ^^ My mom's at Home Depot right now getting all the rest of the plywood they have to cover the stainglass windows. ^ ~ Should be fun. But anyway, I spanked that Chemistry test today! And this uber gothic guy I've been bumping into everywhere in the halls *tackled* me at lunch and then said, "I've been wanting to meet you forever..." We got to talking. Neato guy. ^^ Tomorrow, however, is Algebra II. *curls up in a ball and whimpers*
Much to tell, but I really don't have the energy. Dreamy stuff. |
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| 05:33pm 29/08/2004 |
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mood: happy
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Eee! Ok, I'm back, officially. ^^ *tackle hugs to everyone*
But while I was gone, dammit, Nacht, I know it was a LONG time ago that we talked about this, but you got me thinking.
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| 07:40pm 28/08/2004 |
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mood:  frustrated
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Just one more day. - - 'Tis painful, very, very, very painful. |
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| 08:14pm 27/08/2004 |
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mood:  sad
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This weekend is PURE torture! >< I can't properly get on - besides my 20 freakin' minutes a day - until Sunday, after church. Do you have ANY idea how heartbreaking that is or for that matter, how QUICKLY I'd kill my parents right now? I've spent every waking moment for this past week with them...you have...NO...clue... |
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